A couple weeks ago, I posted a short note to my kids. You can see it here. After reading the post, my Mom sent me an email. I shan’t copy and paste the entire email as parts of it are just between us; however, I was reminded of an important point. But first, a quick semi-personal aside.
I have tried to fashion this blog into a cathartic release for me that is solely based on my work experiences. I deviate every so often, but, hey, it’s my blog, right? At any rate, I have mostly kept my political and religious views out of here, because those views can be met as divisive or confrontational…which is funny, since I work in one of the most confrontational careers going. I want you, the reader, to see things from a perspective you may not necessarily be familiar with, specifically, a cop’s.
Having said that, however, I must admit to a fair amount of shame for not expressing my personal belief in God prior to all the ridiculous catastrophes of late. I don’t intend to brow beat any of you with my particular view of religion and God, don’t fret. I will say, though, that I have a strong background in Christianity and have all the faith in the world in God, my personal struggles with organized religion and/or Church notwithstanding. This is not the forum to argue the divinity of these really shitty events or my use of the word shitty in the same paragraph with God, but, rather, to my Mom’s rather salient point.
And here it is…in her own words…
We live in an evil world – yes. We are taught to live in this world but not to be â€œofâ€ it. WE are the light. WE are the ones who are charged with helping those who live in that evil. You deal with it every day. Do you not recognize that when you come across a â€œproblemâ€ citizen that YOU are the light they need? You donâ€™t have to preach to them. You donâ€™t have to lecture them. You are responsible only to do what you do â€“ and then pray for them (privately in your car or back at your bike)â€¦every time. The more pissed off you are with a situation â€“ the more prayer you should put into it. Have you considered that your mood is an invitation from God? He opens that door and itâ€™s your choice to walk through it.
You are not the source of your childrenâ€™s security. You are the source of their teaching. No parent wants their child to ever be touched by cruelty, bigotry, injustice or just plain meanness. The sad truth is that there is no way to avoid it. Donâ€™t you think I feel your pain with what you deal with every day? Iâ€™m your mom â€“ I want everyone to love you like I do.
Donâ€™t you believe that I feel your fear in hoping that you CAN protect your children and knowing deep down you cannot? I would not be able to function if I didnâ€™t truly believe that Christ is with you every day in every situation. I pray incessantly for you, your safety and your impact on others â€“ and for your family leadership. Itâ€™s a huge burden to carry without Christ.
Your influence, true influence, on your children is fleeting. You want to help them understand not just what the world is filled with â€“ but how to deal with it â€¦ how to â€œbe in the world not of the worldâ€. There is a plan for everyone â€“ absolutely everyoneâ€¦including everyone involved in the death of those officers.
The same is true of the officers, their family and co-workers. No one can truly explain Godâ€™s plan. We can only do our absolute best to play the cards we are dealt. You learned this, – now is the time to remember it. Christ is the One and Only answer. You can be as private about it as you like but without your faith you have nothing to fall back on. Thatâ€™s what causes confusion in your heart. Thatâ€™s what makes you feel ill-equipped to explain to your children. Bad things happen to very â€“ very good people. We are not privileged to know the details of Godâ€™s plan for each of us. We are, however, privileged to follow the One who can give us the peace that nothing and no one else can.
I love you more than you can possibly comprehend. Find your peace so you can share it with your family â€“ that is YOUR job.
xoxo â€¦ your mom
I know she’ll probably be embarrassed at being included, but, tough. 😉 I can hear her now, “You didn’t have to do that. That was just for you.” Well, here’s a response…maybe YOU were the light others needed and I’m just the vehicle to pass it along? Ooooo…deal with that! It was a point that needed to be made and I’m proud (and quite the Momma’s boy, by the by) that she loves me enough to say these things to me. It seems very fitting to me that this is my 100th post.
I will close with the Officer’s prayer and the knowledge that there is a plan and I’m a part of it. I will try and keep that in mind when I hear the giant sucking sound of Society going down the tubes.
Courage to face and
Conquer my own fears…
Courage to take me
Where others will not go…
I ask for strength
Strength of body to protect others
And strength of spirit to lead others…
I ask for dedication
Dedication to my job, to do it well
Dedication to my community
To keep it safe…
Give me Lord, concern
For others who trust me
And compassion for those who need me…
And please Lord
Through it all
Be at my side…